Adulting

Adulthood- that highly anticipated beacon of liberty and independence;the final steps in the task of painting the canvas of your very own future; the key to igniting the flame needed to offset your visions and dreams...a.k.a that unforgiving backstabbing BI-(sorry, got a bit carried away there😫)bit of a paradox.😏

Who was it that designed this ruthless whirlwind  of varying combination of being, tired, anxious, potentially broke and  indecisive? And as if that weren't enough, it's been set on repeat!😥

Who said I knew how to save consistently and effectively? Invest? Psh. Prepare my own daily meals? Meet every deadline? Appointment?  Be a doting daughter, sister, friend, partner, doctor and friendly neighbour all at once? Who said I had to answer every call whether or not I know who or what disaster may be on the other end of the line? Who said I knew how to shop for just enough grocery and household items to last a few weeks without having to make weekly visits to the store? Who the hellllll said I could actually commit to the gym or that club?

Who sends these bills monthly? I could've sworn I JUST paid that bill last week. Whyyyyyy do most jobs start so early????? I just need a few more minutes (or hours!)of sleep😩😴😪.Why do the weekends shorten when I'm relaxing or having fun but lengthen dramatically when I'm at work? Who said I'm getting older and no longer allowed to "turn up" in the club and twerk?

What am I to do with all these receipts though? You mean there's something on them that I can actually do without? Whether or not the price changes I'm gonna still need all that toilet paper no doubt.😫 Who made me a point of reference? 😮A source of advice? I'm legit here tryna figure out what staple can replace rice. Why can't I say the first thing that comes to my head? Some days I really don't want to play nice or would rather roll over and play dead😐

Adulting-no trial run, no manual, no script. You learn each day as you live and try to live each day as (if)you've learnt. Though like a vicious cycle stuck on repeat, each day is an opportunity to fit the missing pieces of the puzzle you seek. Refer to your elders (yes, those older than you), adjusting the advice and responses to your own reality. Don't compare, never stop, continue doing your best. Only you can live the life to supply all your needs and meet your demands. It's not easy but it must be done. And who better to do it than you? You've literally been given the mandate to design YOUR life; never mind how you may have started with what you consider less than another person's resources- you are enough. With every great painter, the paintbrush fell,the easel toppled and paint splashed, but don't give up on completing your beautiful canvas, leave an indelible mark behind. Enjoy each stroke of the brush, embrace the process of overcoming each challenge and most importantly learn to relax and pamper the mind.😏🤗

As vast as it seems, you are enough😊

Just do it!

*Divided we fall,united we stand*